23.11.05

lonely he*art

and… i think i should thank you since it’s about quarter i’ve been reading your journal. every single post of yours introduced me with different dimensions of growing-up in fact i learnt that life’s never an art. no doubt that you’re searching an improving combination maybe you’ll be met soon. but, then… will you be happy? i mean i think you’ll no longer continue the same as the other day you simply craving for pure love. maybe not... i always think what i’ll do when i’ll get a hold for my last wish. maybe after a while i’ll suicide… gasp. about-faced… i don’t know.

18.11.05

Fail again… so, I’m sad.

chance. there were so many options… doors. among those only a single trap had been settled, and i chose that. it was self-destruction.
broke… 3 hours. slept... indefinite epic music. came… suicide.
but, i remembered… i had not seen my face for a long time. i thought~ it was ugly.
i thought… what happened… happened for a good reason?
thwart.
i should die. wane me