musings

dissatisfaction

2008

16-DECEMBER

color-blind

live like fish

404

noun

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Fall-l!ne

fall with the best will in the world. fall like bird. fall like waterfall. fall flat. fall foul. fall short. fall in me. fall on my domain.

eXudate

i am unable to exudate… and so my cell is decomposing in chain before being burnt by the sun. a feardie (preordained).

self-absorption

self-absorption. that is all about i have cracked to transform. however, if you are here to decode the whole… i hope you to lose it all.

cape-jasmine

say no to that cape-jasmine… please!
if not, then will you steal?
or blackout comes / you may pretend
or they can play hide & seek
or be asleep… (er).

war crim•i•nal

war crim•i•nal, i.e. crime during a war: a crime committed during wartime that is in violation of international agreements concerning the conventions of war… (microsoft® encarta® reference library). AND I HATE ALL THE WAR CRIMINALS OF BANGLADESH.

i'm the son of the moon, emperor of the war, i'm the one who unleash the hate i'm the denial of all benevolence i prepare my holocaust i shall kill without pity… (enthroned).

night

night is nothingness,

in nothingness and being vicious

and keep fighting with the instinct.

in darkness...

night is darkness as well.

so dark to die or lie.

all.the.rage

it's nite...

no moon-light inside or outside.

it's nite...

there dark sings & ghosts cry or shy,

bitch or witch or whore smiles,

i die... everytime i die.

a b o u t pagan

antonym: work

& this an Inspired Portrait… adapting: the process or state of changing to fit new circumstances or conditions, or the resulting change… diminishing sensory response.

(*|*)

the other day i was reading someone like me wrote over a journal about friends… i.e. i had never in my life understood quite so clearly what it is to have friends… (what?)… friends are DEVILS… (what?)… and could you repeat that... anyway, you are my friend… just a friend… a very good friend… a very evil friend… i say: happy friendship day.

ABASE

b-e c-l-i-m-b-i-n-g t-h-e w-a-l-l

Be Climbing The Wall...

be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... be climbing the wall... ???

EARTH

R A I N - O A T H

EVERY SO OFTEN... IN EARTH,
IN FAITH,
IN LIGHT,
AND MY PROLONGING FIGHT...
TO AWAKE WIDE.
PONDERING THE SAME WHILE MY
TREE IS IN TEARS,
BAT IS IN FEARS,
PIG SATURNALIAS,
SUN SLAYS... THE RAIN OATH.

[wúrship]

tranquilizing drug: a tranquilizing drug used to reduce anxiety and tension, and as a muscle relaxant and sedative. Formula: C16H13ClN2O. ok, trial and error… with Marijuana and Eternity.

off-color

(picture-removed) it is nice to hangout all together... nicer while not just limiting in a so called chemical add-ins... so, i guess we are not coloring off... the enjoyment will remain same as usual as always.

lovey-dovey

Past: live in sin... Present: She left me for someone else... And she is for someone else... Who is he? Future: put to death...

Green

no

YES, despite the naming fuckin memory... it is cool and so called a classical frame of limiting a portrait that always tended to be expanding with constant meaning since i did not desire to convey the whole which will be unnecessarily be barking up the wrong tree and maybe a dilemma to be diverted into other directions. obviously, it is transforming my bipolarity toward nothing while immortality is the only preference no matter how the dream disagrees with reality at the end of a sunless day. simple connotation as it is seemed from viewing that a desperate boy with shame and regret is trying to kill an innocent juvenile white goat before of a blowing river to the cadaverous windy shore.