30.8.05

sometime

yesterday was at the best of times i will remember for many long coming years, undoubtedly. i mean… it was something a great day. i was able to embrace my two best friends forever, the wonderful, shvuo, and rhythm, my precious. we indulged together almost four hours of factual enjoyment. else we were walking about one hour in the same row with the unchanged way just we used to do before. although shuvo was drunk but rhythm was in very well mode nowadays he lacks. besides i find extreme bliss when we took our supper. i forgot to ask shuvo to take a snap, i mean… for a true reminisce. ironic. but, still i felt good since these two pals always saved me, sometime directly sometime indirectly from the downfall they never know essentially. i love you guys. i owe you for the rest of my life.

posted by shuvo @ 12:00:00 AM 5 Comments

10.8.05

The Butterfly Effect

it was done… retarded actually. man- he had spoken just like *so i could wake up… a farm in bangladesh* hoot… i better lost. i mean everybody was wining. i lost. but i did not know exactly why(?). i lost in fact i proposed a rule… if i required the wing then i must required the entire dark. distortion… i know. that was… i wished to be a different person before and after… since i hate to follow any sort of fixed rules. and i am still loosing. that is fate you know… you can never be blessed unless until you be loved by someone you hate/hated...

posted by shuvo @ 10:30:00 PM 0 Comments

1.8.05

a_F_t_E_r

yesterday… i was alone. today… i am empty. tomorrow… i will be lost. in actual fact, i do not know how i am going to stay alive. it is all coming down. i am in deep inside chemical dependency. no hope exists. all the doors are closing one by one. i am helpless. no control. no-good. sleep... sleep.. sleep. am i always waiting for a sad dream?

posted by shuvo @ 12:30:00 AM 0 Comments